My Life. My Blog.

I go through periods where I don’t feel connected to my work.  I show up - I deliver results - but I’m on autopilot.  In these periods - while I can be passionate about all the things … I’m not actually feeling fulfilled at the end of the day.  Those periods are rough … They are exhausting.  I come out of these periods … I’m never really sure what causes them or prompts their exit.   I’m coming out of a particularly exhausting period … Not because I was working too many hours

This week was a lot.  Difficult personalities, childish behaviour, bitter cold weather, things not working or breaking down.  In these moments - when things get hard or don’t go my way or I feel like I’m in over my head … that little voice pipes up … sometimes she’s positive, telling me I’ve got this, I can do this … my positive self-talk is often in the third person so really she sounds more like “you can do this” or “you’ve got this”.  I’m sure there is something to that -

My reels are peppered with fire horse tips.  I keep reading and hearing that fire horse energy is action oriented.  I like action oriented. While I like a framework - some structure … planning is not actually one of my core strengths.  While I feel like I’ve spent most of the last two years in a “paused” state … a lot has also happened in those two years … so while “paused” for me - they were also filled with some pretty big life changes (read buying my first home). I needed